Weight Watchers

I just joined Weight Watchers at work and what I did not expect to feel was a huge sense of relief.

When the semester started 5 weeks ago, work sent out an email about Weight Watchers, but I couldn’t make the meeting time. Two or three weeks later, I remember thinking to myself that I needed to re-commit to eating healthy and it was a shame that I couldn’t make Weight Watchers. Literally that same day, they sent an email saying they were changing the meeting time. I remember feeling terrified because I knew that meant I had to commit. There’s nothing I hate more than making myself a hypocrite, especially when it comes to dodging my goals.

I knew I had about two weeks of eating whatever and I somehow tried to fit in literally every unhealthy food that I enjoyed eating into the time before Weight Watchers started. The first week of this was exciting. By the second week, I wasn’t even enjoying the food and just felt bad. I was looking forward to Weight Watchers.

I’m still a little bit scared because this is going to mean some pretty extreme lifestyle changes. I have 23 points per day and what I usually eat for breakfast (a yogurt and Bellvita) that I thought was pretty healthy, is 11 points. That’s almost half of my daily calories and isn’t even that filling.

I expect that this will change the way I think about food and how I cook and eat. If I can stick to this, I think I will lose a lot of weight. More importantly, I will make healthier decisions and formulate healthy habits that should last a long time. I’ll also stop feeling guilty about my eating. It’ll free up a lot of mental space and help me feel better about myself and my body.

I think my biggest obstacle will be holding strong, even when other people aren’t keeping to the same healthy choices. So many of my friends and family love deserts and we love to share them. My parents bring or make me desert, my best friend takes me to all the different ice cream places when I visit her, and the first thing my boyfriend asked me today when I told him about SmartPoints was how much fries from Five Guys were (30 in case you’re wondering. Remember, your daily limit is 23).

I’m proud of joining and committing to this lifestyle change, but I’m definitely scared of how different and how hard it’s going to be. Please be understanding and supportive, especially as I start this journey. And I hope that you’re inspired to start your own- weight and health or otherwise!


Axes and Acceptance

Sometimes I think at heart, there’s still a big part of me that’s a lonely little girl terrified of rejection. But in this case, this is a happy reflection. Because partly, it means that I’m absolutely overjoyed at new friends.

I haven’t posted much (at all?) about the axe-throwing league I joined this summer, but it’s been AWESOME! First of all, it feels amazing to throw axes. There’s nothing more satisfying than the thunk of metal lodging itself into the wooden target. The atmosphere at axe-throwing is also amazing. This is a combination of a few things- amazing music in a warehouse that smells like woodchips (for some reason I strongly associate this with summer), lots of beer, and incredible people. Even though I started off REALLY sucking (and now I only kind of suck), everyone is super supportive. Some of the best people in the league cheer me on and share in my joy as well as my frustration when the axes clatter off the target to the floor. The best moment was definitely when I hit the special 10 spot that you can only get on the last throw. Literally the entire league burst into applause and congratulations.

There’s a lot of down time in the league as well, but I find this to be a perk. When you’re not throwing, you end up sitting around while drinking beer and chatting with the other axe-throwers. Everyone is friendly, supportive, and fun. We all have different hobbies and jobs during the day (from someone who works at NASA to teachers to hot tub sellers and more), but we all bond over axes and beer.

Now that I’ve finished the first league and am getting pumped to start the second in a few weeks, I feel like I really belong. One of the axe-throwers invited me to participate in a D&D campaign, which is amazing because I definitely can always use more gaming in my life. I also got invited to the special Facebook messenger group (for participation in 1+ leagues) and they invited me to come throw axes with them in Columbus this Saturday. I was disappointed that I’ll be at a baseball game and fan appreciation event, but really pleased to be invited.

Just these simple conversations put a big smile on my face today. I joined the league because I was interested in throwing axes- still am and it’s awesome! But I also found friendship, and that’s been a lovely surprise.